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 Well it is what it is.  No reply. Lol I’m dumb. 

 I’m not crazy but maybe I am. Idk 

If I have to be completely honest. I’ve been kind of saving myself for something worthwhile. Last time i got fully intimate with someone was with my ex and that was way before the pandemic. I somehow created this thing in my head that he wanted to talk to me again or something but not much has changed. There was never enough time for me or maybe anyone else. Why do I still feel like this though? I was expecting growth and a straightforward answer but maybe a) he doesn’t care(which is fine, tell me at least) b) he is just playing the field in hope of god knows what. Anyhow. I think is time to keep it pushing again. 

 I’m the clown. I should have known it would be a bad ideas to to start messaging him again but like a clown I did it. He doesn’t care lol never did and never will. I’m just dumb. Well that to do now. What to do?

 I don’t know why I expected more lol 😂 I’ll never learn! He actually doesn’t even want to talk lol 😂 well I think I bothered me because I brought me back to the past. I hate him lol. 

 Would I meet him for a casual encounter again? Yeah but nothing else.