Update or whatever it is
Once long long I probably would have said I do to someone I loved very much now I don’t think anyone wants me or no one will ever find me appealing in any way. Not that I haven’t tried I’m just not desirable anymore. I feel my good years are long gone which is why I’m just trying to plan what what older day will look like. In the gay world the older you get they harder it is to find a partner. I had one once that I would have done anything for my only mistake was not waiting to be alone so I decided to end things which lead to me being where I am today. I’m not perfect but I thought I was going to have a different kind of ending like in the movies. Delusional me.