Randomness
One think I’ll never understand if you are going to leave someone on read than do that don’t read their messages and still leave them on read. It’s tacky lol imo. Fucking hate the holidays.
Posts
PPP Loans
OMG my coworker got arrested for defrauding the government. It was insane I guess people who asked for PPP loans will get arrested.
Late night
In another life I would be yours, we’d keep all of our promises, be us against the world. In another life I would make you stay so I don’t have to say you are the one that got away. Well that was then.. this is now.
Life update
One thing I hate doing nowadays is like someone. The feeling that I get is just horrific. The memories I get from all the bad times I had to endure to even get someone to spend time with me is crippling. I loved once like I never loved before and the experience has left a bad taste in my heart.
@#%^&*
I am completely confused as to what to do. I am sad about possibly losing my best friend, the divorce has changed him. Finding things to do, keeping super busy, ignoring the fact i need help also but I've always helped him. Time will tell as to what i end up doing.
Dream
Tell me why I had a dream about a person that I no longer which to even talk to. After being left on read, ignored when my mother day, moving to be closer and feeling like being tossed like I didn’t matter. I wonder why I had to dream about this person. Not sure where it even came from. The night was good, I had fun, good people around me and boom it was immediately ruined. I woke up angry and couldn’t fall back to sleep. I will not get into the dream but let’s just say it was bad.
Red
The sun is a red as an apple today. Weird. I’m good today. The fact that don’t have to worry about anyone or anything is peaceful.
Thoughts
An encounter is meaningless nowadays. Honestly I still don’t want to even entertain the idea of an encounter, I’m just so broken from the past. I have been trying to move forward and such but the community itself makes it hard to search for something meaningful. The apps take more precedence in anyone’s life that the important stuff is often forgotten. I think being alone forever is not the answer but is pretty good way to live peacefully.
Marriage
Well I only thought seriously about that subject with one person. I don’t think he wanted to ask after I I said something but now I was asked and I don’t want to do it, I think cohabitation is better for me. I was scared for life I think.