Sadness

I could have made a great boyfriend/ husband(maybe) the circumstances are fucked so at this point it may never happen. Sad that it's hard for him to get his shit together and no I don't need to help. I'm so stressed out over this trip. I feel like crying but I have to keep it together. I just wanted to feel someone close and touching me before leaving and he refused but he was able to get on Grindr. Go figure a random slut can get his gears going just not me.