I don't think he wants me anymore. I'll try though I don't want to lose faith again ever again. He is not listening I need him and it just doesn't work. He called me stupid again. I am but how can I admit something like that and be the idiot and trash and still feel worthy of anything. Once love is gone it's gone. I've always had in me deep down hidden at times dude to fear and I knew he had it too but I think he is losing and knowing that might be happening can change my life forever. 

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