Rant

He doesn't know how a simple word can make me sad not mad. You are out there sleeping and get mad when I asked you to lay down yet you fall asleep faster than me. It's bullshit. The good ol times are gone. I love him I just don't know why he fights been around me. If I suggest something he say but when I say it. He's rarely asked me to lay down to sleep but has asked me to lay down next to him before having sex which is different. Now we can't even have sex because he is pain. I mentioned the doctor and he got mad. Oh well saying doesn't fix anything. Shit you should go without anyone telling you it's part of being an adult who wants his health to not deteriorate. I hope nothing bad happens. I feel as if I'm his punching bag right now. He says I don't argue with anyone. Why would you? They don't want to be with you like I do maybe. It's shit I feel awful right now. 

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